NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT HIM. TWO YEARS HAS COME AND GONE AND IT SEEMS AS IF IT WAS MUCH HARDER THIS YEAR. AUNT TINA MADE A GOOD POINT, SHE SAID IT WAS EASIER LAST YEAR BECAUSE WE WERE SO NUMB TO THE FACT THAT HE WAS GONE. THIS YEAR, WE ARE MORE AWARE OF HOW REAL IT IS AND HE IS NOT COMING BACK. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION IN REMEMBERENCE OF HIM WITHOUT THE TEARS FALLING AND MY THROAT CLOSING UP AND I BECOME SPEECHLES.
I KNOW IT IS OK TO GRIEVE AND HIS MEMORY REMAINS ALWAYS, NEAR AND DEAR TO ME. EVERYONE WHO KNEW HIM, HAD A SPECIAL BOND WITH HIM... HE WAS LIKE MY BROTHER, WE WERE VERY CLOSE. AS WE GOT OLDER, WE BEGAN TO HANG OUT AND I GOT TO MEET SOME OF HIS FRIENDS, WHICH WERE JUST AS GOOFY AS HE WAS. I REMEMBER ALL THE TIMES OF BABYSITTING HIM AND THE CAT FIGHTS WE WOULD HAVE WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER..... IT IS JUST SO SURREAL NOW.
AS THE DIAMOND RIO SONG SAYS, "ONE MORE DAY..." THAT IS WHAT WE ALL WISHED TO HAVE, IS ONE MORE DAY. I KNOW HE IS WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND IS UP THERE WATCHING OVER US, MORE OR LESS, OUR GUARDIAN ANGEL.
HIS CHILDREN ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SMART AND SOOO VERY MUCH LIKE HIM. IT SADDENS ME TO SEE THEM GO THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT EVER KNOWING THEIR DADDY. THERE WILL BE A DAY, WHEN WE ARE ALL THERE WITH HIM AND SPENDING ETERNITY TOGETHER.
I MISS YOU JUSTIN QUINN MATTHEW BYRNS (HENSELER). LOL!
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ON A LIGHTER NOTE, WE ARE FINISHED MOVING AND IT ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE HOME. KODY DID SO MUCH THIS WEEK TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING WAS MOVED AND PUT INTO STORAGE. HE'S AN ANGEL. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE. I CAN'T SEE MYSELF WITH ANYONE ELSE, AND I WOULD BE WILLING TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM.. IF THAT DAY COMES.
I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY, BUT, WELL, SINCE I AM SUCH A NIGHT OWL, I BETTER TRY TO SLEEP.
I LOVE YOU JUST- REST IN PEACE
I LOVE YOU KODY! THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO AND SHOWING ME A NEW WAY OF LIFE, A BETTER WAY. A WAY OF SIMPLICITY, STRENGTH, TOUGH LOVE AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. THANKS BABE!
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