Col's First Day of Kindergarten!

The last 6 years have flown by. I blink and I may miss a smile, a giggle, a hug, a tear... Today was my baby's first day at school. I am in complete amazement! His personality is like no other. He resembles both of his parents and has picked up of some of our personality traits. All in all, he is one of a kind! I am proud mom who could boast about my baby ALL day long. Some disappointment has set in the past few weeks, but I am hoping and praying that it is just a phase and he will learn from his mistakes. Never could I be so happy to be a mom! Hearing the I love yous, gets me every time. He's quick witted, funny, GOOFY and very DRAMATIC. All in which I absolutely love! What's NOT to love about your children!

The love for a child is completely unfathomable and until you experience it, you will never know what it is like to have someone love you like no one has ever loved you before! My baby's not a baby anymore, but in my eyes, he will ALWAYS be my baby!

Trying to Live Life as I should!

I am reposting this... I truly believe that this is an important aspect in life. No one is perfect, let alone going to always be 100% with their game. But, Once you have this in mind and on your mind, then you can learn to become a better person.. NO MATTER what faith or religion you believe in. The point is: THOU SHALL NOT JUDGE!!!

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AS TIME GOES BY, AND I FIND MORE AND MORE PEACE WITH GOD, I REALIZE THAT WE ARE NOT THE ONES PLACED ON THIS EARTH TO JUDGE, YET, WE DO IT EVERYDAY. WE DON'T EVEN KNOW WE ARE JUDGING AND HERE WE ARE MAKING COMMENTS ABOUT WHAT SOMEONE LOOKS LIKE, HOW FAT, SKINNY, TALL SHORT, WEIRD, ETC. WHO ARE WE TO MAKE THAT DECISION!
LIFE IS A JOURNEY TO SEEK THE TRUTH OF WHAT GOD HAS SET OUT FOR US. FINDING PEACE WITH GOD HAS BEEN NUMBER ONE FOR ME AND I FEEL I HAVE FOUND THAT PEACE, FINALLY. EACH INDIVIDUAL IS DIFFERENT AND SEEKS AND YEARNS FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TO FILL THEIR SOUL WITH THE SPIIRT OF GOD. MY YEARNING AND LONGING, IS NO LONGER. I NOW JUST HAVE THE THIRST TO LEARN MORE AND DO MORE TO NOT ONLY BETTER WHO I AM AS A PERSON, BUT TO GIVE BACK WHAT HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME- THE BLESSINGS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE.
MY FAMILY- ALL OF MY FAMILY MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. I MAY NOT KNOW YOU AND HAVE A CLOSE BOND, BUT I LOVE YOU AND I WOULD NOT THINK TWICE ABOUT HELPING IF NEEDED.
THE BOOK OF JAMES REALLY GIVES SO MUCH PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE, MY LIFE AND THE WORLD.

James 3:17- Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

THIS VERSE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME... HAVING FAITH MEANS TO ME THAT NOT ONLY BELIEVING AND NEVER GIVING UP, BUT WORKING AND SHOWING THAT YOU TRULY LOVE ONE ANOTHER AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ANOTHER DESPITE THEIR ETHNICITY, RELIGIOUS BELIEFS, THEIR MISTAKES AND SINS, THEIR SOCIAL STATUS. WE SHALL ALL BE TREATED AS ONE AND DO FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN NEED.

James 4:12- There is one Lawgiver who is able to save and destroy. Who are you to judge another?

AS EASY AS IT MAY BE TO ANSWER THAT QUESTION, IT IS OVERLOOKED BY EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US. MY ENCOURAGEMENT IS MY FAMILY, MY LIFE, MY CHOICES TO BECOME BETTER, AND IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I THINK I AM BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE. IT JUST MEANS THAT I AM TAKING THAT STEP TO BECOME CLOSER TO GOD, TO FOLLOW CLOSER AND LIVE BY HIS WORD.
TO KNOW THE FEELING OF THE SPIRIT FULLFILL ME, HAS NOT ONLY BEEN THE MOST AMAZING AND JOYOUS THING IN MY LIFE, BUT IT HAS SHOWN ME, THAT NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, WHAT YOU'VE DONE OR NOT DONE TO ME, I LOVE YOU AND NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT.
THE PASSING AWAY OF MY CLOSEST COUSIN TO ME, HAS HELPED OPEN MY EYES TO SO MANY THINGS. JUSTIN MAY NOT HAVE MADE THE BEST OF CHOICES, BUT HE SHOWED GREAT LOVE TO ALL AND ALL LOVED HIM. I HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY THE WAY HE TREATED OTHERS.. HE WAS AN AMAZING PERSON WITH THE MOST AMAZING SPIRIT AND KINDEST SOUL.

EACH DAY IS A CONSTANT CHALLENGE TO ACCEPT HE IS REALLY GONE FROM THIS EARTH, AND I CRY MANY TIMES OUT OF NO WHERE. HE HAS LEFT A VOID IN MY HEART THAT WILL ALWAYS BE SAVED JUST FOR HIM. I SHALL NEVER FORGET HIM, OR PUSH ASIDE THE MEMORIES I HAVE OF HIM. HIS SPIRIT IS ALL AROUND US AND THAT LETS ME KNOW IT WILL BE OK.

GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!

My Lil' Man

Little hands touching you softly
Gentle hugs embrace you
Soft kisses on your cheeks
My baby is not a baby anymore.
The words that come out his mouth.
The independence in his voice.
One day at a time, how rapid he grows.
A little gentleman he is, I hope he always knows!
Sounds of "Mom" ring throughout the house.
I miss you so much when you are not here.
Unconditional love- it is never ending
Watching you grow into your own self..
Your personality, just so charming.
Stubborn you may be, but that comes with life.
Silly, handsome, thoughtful
You will never be more important than anything.
You light up my life with that little giggle.
You touch my heart more than just a little!
Growing up, I don't want you too.
You're my Lil' Man and that's always going to be true!
Crashing cars and finding rocks.
Watching cartoons, or smelling stinky socks.
All of you I love so dearly.
Your kisses, your hugs, your laughter, your tugs.
"Hold you Mom", I never will let go.
Stinky Ki-ki and your thumb...
Oh so cute, I just want you to stay young!
Mister Independence, so sweet, so kind..
Gone to school, growing so fast.
Sports, friends, girls...
Just be careful in all you do.
Know in your heart to always be true.
Treat all those who come into your life,
With respect, love and always be kind.
Your heart is so big, you make me so proud.
One of a kind, You could never let me down.
Disappointment may come,
But your love will always be.
My Lil' Man, forever, to me!

s.j. byrns 5/5/08