You spin me right 'round, Baby right round!!

The past five months have been quite interesting, I spend a LOT of time with my new found "friend", Weston. He's been an intriguing addition to my life. He may be 6 years younger than myself, but he seems to, well, he is quite a gentleman. Very sweet, chivalrous, very down to earth, genuine. He makes my world spin right 'round... His family is amazing! I feel as if they are my "family" 'round these parts! Lol! Wes and I are "just friends". We enjoy each other's company and going out and doing random things together, as if we were dating, but we do not want to be in a relationship right now. If, in the future, something comes of this, that would be awesome, if not, then I have a great friend I can turn to.

I know I need to focus more on myself, and my son..



I think that God places people in your life for a reason, and Wes, is one of those people. He is so great with my son and my son really likes him as well. Colin and I need a change from the person who has been in our lives for the past 2 years. I just feel we deserve better. When it all comes down to it, no one comes before my son and will ever come between my son and I! I make that clear!

As the World Turns.....

As MY World Turns.....round and round and round...

Life has changed. Where do I begin? I am so lost. I have fallen off my path to God, what I should be doing is listening to him. I am slowly getting back into the habits of where I need to be and figuring out who I 'really' am.

It was all too easy to hang with friends and do my own thing, when my duties and priorities at home haven't been met. I have not been the person, mom, significant other, friend I should be. I have let go of the sights that are most important to me and now, as usual, things are falling apart. I take full responsibility for my actions. I need to make a decision in the what I really want for myself.

Rough Road, but hope ahead (hopefully)

The Calm Before the Storm

...the storm has come...

Life definitely throws some hard balls, and they hurt once you've been hit. That's how I am feeling now. I don't know what to think, say or do. My heart has been broken, and I just don't know how to act, especially when I was told I am the one who cannot be trusted?? Confused? Yes!

What the hell? I accidentally came across something stupid and maybe I did make a big deal out of it, but as I see it, it is a big F***ing deal. I am past that point in my life, no more secrets, no more lies, no more hiding things. I do not want a relationship that way. Thus far, I have been so completely happy with what I have, with who I am with (in love with) and everything else. I never knew how bad love could hurt until it finally happened to me.

My heart feels like it has been ripped out and stomped on, over and over and over again. I feel like I cannot breathe, as if I have been punched in the stomach. The tears come at the most inopportune time. I find myself crying uncontrollably and it just won't stop.

To make things worse, it is now MY fault!! How? Well, someone has to point fingers when they are wrong, right? That is my only guess.

I just feel so lonely, betrayed, lied too! I get to spend the weekend now, with all the family after all this bullshit happened and I have to admit I am a little uncomfortable. I know Mom(his mom) is definitely going to take his side, the other brothers and sister in laws, maybe not so much. I just don't know.. I am speechless. Completely speechless!

EMOTIONS OF LIFE/LOVE

Life, it is what is, or so many think.

We have a good and bad days,

The bad always seem to outweigh the good.

Love is an emotion, and action, reaction

Or just and emotionless word said to

Make one believe.

Don't fill my heart will empty promises,

Don't fill my head with empty sayings,

I am who I am and will continue to always grow in time.

Life.

It has its up and downs.

Just when you think all is well,

You get your heart ripped out.

You lose all track of everything,

Thinking of only the pain that fills your heart.

Love.

What will be will be.

Hope for the best, expect the worst.

Move on if it isn't all it cracked up to be.

Time will tell, will heal

And will prove if this is the life

We want together, the life worth

Working through the hard balls it throws at us.

My motto:

Live-Laugh-Love.

8-26-2009

STEPHANIE JANEEN IVERSON

Summer 2009

SuMmEr 2009

WHERE DO I BEGIN? OUR SUMMER STARTED EARLY. MAY 21ST TO BE EXACT! COLIN AND I LEFT FOR AN ADVENTURE WE WILL NEVER FORGET! WE DROVE FIVE HOURS TO OGDEN AND MET MY MOM AND AUNTIE AT MY DAD'S HOUSE, THEN OFF TO CALIFORNIA IT WAS! WE WERE ALL SOOOO EXCITED!!! SEEING FAMILY, SIX FLAGS, GRADUATIONS.... SOOO MUCH TO DO AND SEE! WE ARRIVED FRIDAY EVENING ON MAY 22ND. THE FUN HAD JUST BEGUN! OUR STAY AT JEANNIE AND DEAN'S HOUSE WAS AN ABSOLUTE BLAST AND SOMEWHAT MAKES ME SAD THAT I DO NOT LIVE CLOSER.

DAY TWO OF OUR VACATION CONSISTED OF SHOPPING, SHOPPING AND MORE SHOPPING!! AND DID I MENTION WE LAUGHED AND LAUGHED!! IT WAS SO REVIVING TO BE AROUND ALL THE CRAZINESS AND LOVE OF MY FAMILY!

DAY THREE WE HAD OUR COUSIN JOSH'S GRADUATION! THAT WAS VERY TOUCHING AND EMOTIONAL. KNOWING ALL THAT HE HAS BEEN THROUGH, I WAS SO PROUD TO SEE HIM GETTING PRAISES BY HIS PROFESSORS.

DAY FOUR WE WENT TO GRANDPA AND GRANDMA HENNING'S HOUSE, NOW MIND YOU, WE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE EARLY OR THEY WILL BE TO TANKED TO REALLY VISIT. THEY ARE SWEET AND I MISS THEM. MY GRANDMA IS A HOOT!!! THEIR YARD IS COVERED BY WILD STRAWBERRIES, ORANGE AND GRAPEFRUIT TREES AND SO MUCH MORE! IF I COULD HAVE A HOUSE, IT WOULD BE LIKE THEIRS. LATER THAT NIGHT UNCLE MASON TOOK US OUT TO ONE OF THE BEST JAPANESE RESTAURANTS, OJIUA (O-G-WA). THAT WAS AN EXPERIENCE TO REMEMBER WITH COLIN. HE WAS SOO FASCINATED WITH THE FIRE ON THE HIBACHI GRILL! WE ENDED THE NIGHT ON FULL BELLIES AND READY FOR THE NEXT DAY.

DAY FIVE..... SIX FLAGS!!!! WOO HOO!! COLIN WAS SOOO EXCITED TO GO AND RIDE EVERY ROLLERCOASTER HE POSSIBLY COULD. HE WAS A LITTLE UPSET THAT HE WAS NOT TALL ENOUGH FOR SOME OF THE RIDES, BUT HE MANAGED TO STAY CONTENT WITH WHAT HE WAS ABLE TO GO ON. HE DIDN'T SCREAM OR GET SCARED, HE JUST GIGGLED THE WHOLE TIME ON THE RIDES!! I FINALLY HAVE A PARTNER TO RIDE THE COASTERS WITH.

DAY SIX, ALL I REMEMBER IS THAT I WAS SOOO TIRED THAT I SLEPT FOR AT LEAST THREE HOURS ON JEANNIE'S HUGE CHAIR IN HER LIVING ROOM! AWW.. THAT WAS HEAVENLY!

DAY SEVEN, KIMBERLY'S GRADUATION FROM 8TH GRADE GOING INTO HIGH SCHOOL. I KNOW IT IS WEIRD TO SOME, BUT IT IS A BIG THING, APPARENTLY IN CALIFORNIA! WE LATER WENT BACK TO JEANNIE'S ATE MORE YUMMY FOOD AND PREPARED FOR OUR DEPARTURE SATURDAY MORNING...

DAY EIGHT AND NINE....FRIDAY WE DID A WHOLE LOT OF NOTHING BUT VISIT AND RELAX. LOTS OF LAUNDRY AND MORE VISITING. WE DROVE DOWNTOWN PARADIDE, CALIFORNIA TO SEE MOM AND AUNTIE'S HOUSE THEY GREW UP IN AS KIDS(HOUSE WAS BUILT IN 1931). WE WERE, THEY WERE LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET A TOUR OF THE HOUSE AND YARD. IT WAS FUN TO SEE THEM REMINICE! WOW, WHAT WOULD THE FIFTIES AND SIXTIES BE LIKE GROWING UP AS A CHILD? IT WOULD DEFINITELY BE A LOT DIFFERENT THAN NOW, YOU CAN BARELY RAISE YOUR VOICE AT A CHILD WITHOUT GETTING DCFS CALLED ON YOU... ANYWAY, SATURDAY MORNING CAME, TOOOOOOOO SOOON AND WAY TOOOOO EARLY. WE WERE UP AT 3:30 A.M.! WHO THE HECK DOES THAT!? NONELESS WE WERE OFF BY 4:00 A.M. AND I THINK I SLEPT ABOUT 3-4 MORE HOURS.. OF COURSE MR. JABBER JAWS STAYED AWAKE THE WHOLE TIME. I DON'T KNOW WHERE HE GETS HIS ENERGY. WE STOPPED IN ELKO, NEVADA. WE STAYED IN A MOTEL FOR THE NIGHT, WENT OUT TO EAT WITH MY FAMILY THAT LIVES THERE ( AUNT DEB, UNCLE STEVE, G-MA & G-PA BYRNS WERE THERE VISITING, TRINITY, MICHAEL AND SAMANTHA ALL CAME). I HAD THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. BOTH SIDES OF MY FAMILY HAVING DINNER, JOKING, LAUGHING, BEING THE CORRUPTED MINDS WE ARE.

DAY NINE CAME SOONER THAN LATER AND TO OGDEN WE WENT. WE MADE ABOUT 2:00 P.M. I STAYED AT DAD'S FOR A WHILE, THEN OFF I WAS! I LITERALLY DROVE 90 MPG THE WHOLE WAY HOME! I WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE KODY(NO I DID NOT HAVE COLIN)!

I MADE THE TRIP IN FOUR HOURS EXACT! IT WAS NICE TO BE HOME, BUT THE DREADED MONDAY CAME AND IT WAS BACK TO REALITY!

FUN TIMES

HERE'S A FEW PICS FROM JANUARY TO PRESENT OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I REALLY NEED TO UPDATE THIS DAMN THING, BUT I AM HAVING WRITERS BLOCK!

LISA AND ME IN VEGAS FOR HER BIRTHDAY!

JULS & JUT VISITING US IN JANUARY

Colin and Avery riding the Rancher while

it was in the back of the truck. LOL-goofballs!

My lil' monkey swingin' at Trent and KJ's

Ooohs, Awwws, Hard work, beat to the ground..

Well, it has been a while since I've said some words. Where do I begin? Let's go back about three weeks ago..

Oh, how I remember it so. The dreaded D-Day! The day of switching over to a new computer system. :::::::speechless:::: Well, I had been somewhat optimistic/skeptical with this so-called "Great" system. Well, that kind of went out the window.

Week One: We had at least 15 people in a 5x12 space running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. Miserable? Yes. Interesting at the same time. I believe what hair my manager had left, it all fell out that week. It was sooooo dysfunctional. I cannot put into words how bad it was. Klonopin was my best friend! ha ha ha ha!

Week Two: I am finally picking up the system and actually getting excited about the new things I've taught myself and was able to share with others. On the other hand, the manager has been our resource student and definitely needs to be on a learning curve. Yikes!

I NEEDED THIS AND IT WAS GRRREAAT! LOL!

Week Three: I am changing my name, going under for plastic surgery and fleeing the country with that millionaire boyfriend of mine. If I hear EPRN one more time I am going to lose it, almost did last week. Went off about how lazy certain people are and that there's got to be another way to get the stupid rotations in order, let alone the whole damn pharmacy.!

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On a lighter note my lil' man has started soccer and loves it! I have been nominated to be coach when my shackles are let loose from that place I call work.

Kody has been amazing and even though we've not seen much of each other, he usually has dinner ready and is soooo understanding of my exhaustion.

All and all life is good and really no complaints, just work and learning new stuff. My family is well and we are excited for EASTER!

You Just Never Know..........

You just never know what life has in store. One minute everything is ok

the next minute you find out a loved one has passed away. You grieve in your own ways, but nothing anyone could say will ever make the pain inside go away.

So many people's lives have been taken, that I've known and grown up with. I am just in aww. Speechless is a better way to put it.

Sadness everywhere I go. No jobs, no money, struggling just to survive in the world we live in. I often think to myself, would we better off if we did not live in the world anymore. I know it's our passage through life to go through these painstaking circumstances. We cannot choose our fate, we cannot choose our beginning or our ending. We stick it out through the obstacles and follow the paths that are chosen for us. We can't sit behind our wall and try to avoid all possible things that can happen.

It's just one day at a time, one foot in front of the other and take the good with the bad. I try to follow the path as God has written it for us in the Bible.

No one person is perfect and never will be. Sit back, enjoy the ride, be greatful to be with the ones you love and love you. It goes to show you just never know.

You never know what is in store for you. My son and my family are my everything. The ones which I'd do anything for.

*LOVE*LAUGH*LIVE*

I miss you!
I miss your voice, your jokes, your laughter and your smile.

You were so many things I am not.

I cherish every moment I had with you.

I miss you.Forever in my heart, you will be.

In my thoughts, you will never leave.

I miss you.Watching down upon me as an angel,

how great would that be?

Whisps of wind & cold breezes let me know you are here with me.

I miss you.Always on my mind, in my conversations, my actions, there you are! I miss you!
StephanieIverson
Copyright ©2009 StephanieIverson

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Another adventure in Steph's Book of Life!

Well, I had today off, which is somewhat odd in the middle of the week. So, Kody and I decided to get up early, take the four wheeler out and see where the day takes us.

We ended up at the Coal Pit, went riding around for a while, went out to Grafton and over Goooseberry Mesa area. I found my first FULL arrowhead and TONS of broken pottery! It was like heaven. I really enjoyed being able to have alone time with my Babe. It may seem like we get a lot of alone time, but we really don't. Not like today. Today was awesome!

My Mom, My Best Friend...

My Mom, My Best Friend.

Who could ask for more?

She's been through so much, yet

I can turn to her and she understands

me, doesn't judge me.

She's always there with open arms.

My life would be incomplete without her in it!

She and my son are the most importan people

in my life! God has blessed me more than I

Feel I deserve.

To my beautiful Mom...

I love you more than words can say.

I am blessed more and more each day.

The love you give is more I could ever imagine .

You're my best friend, the one I can always

Count on to listen to me, to give advice and

To always make sure I am happy.

You've helped me more than I could ever

repay, someday I will.

Thank you for you unconditional love,

Understanding, trust, honesty, and

Complete faith in me!

I don't know what I'd do without you!

Thank you, Mom, for everything!

Through good and bad, we've seen

Each other through it all!

What more could I ask for!

I have the world's BEST MOM!

I Love you!

ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

JIB JAB JIB JAB...BLAH BLAH

NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT HIM. TWO YEARS HAS COME AND GONE AND IT SEEMS AS IF IT WAS MUCH HARDER THIS YEAR. AUNT TINA MADE A GOOD POINT, SHE SAID IT WAS EASIER LAST YEAR BECAUSE WE WERE SO NUMB TO THE FACT THAT HE WAS GONE. THIS YEAR, WE ARE MORE AWARE OF HOW REAL IT IS AND HE IS NOT COMING BACK. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION IN REMEMBERENCE OF HIM WITHOUT THE TEARS FALLING AND MY THROAT CLOSING UP AND I BECOME SPEECHLES.

I KNOW IT IS OK TO GRIEVE AND HIS MEMORY REMAINS ALWAYS, NEAR AND DEAR TO ME. EVERYONE WHO KNEW HIM, HAD A SPECIAL BOND WITH HIM... HE WAS LIKE MY BROTHER, WE WERE VERY CLOSE. AS WE GOT OLDER, WE BEGAN TO HANG OUT AND I GOT TO MEET SOME OF HIS FRIENDS, WHICH WERE JUST AS GOOFY AS HE WAS. I REMEMBER ALL THE TIMES OF BABYSITTING HIM AND THE CAT FIGHTS WE WOULD HAVE WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER..... IT IS JUST SO SURREAL NOW.

AS THE DIAMOND RIO SONG SAYS, "ONE MORE DAY..." THAT IS WHAT WE ALL WISHED TO HAVE, IS ONE MORE DAY. I KNOW HE IS WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND IS UP THERE WATCHING OVER US, MORE OR LESS, OUR GUARDIAN ANGEL.

HIS CHILDREN ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SMART AND SOOO VERY MUCH LIKE HIM. IT SADDENS ME TO SEE THEM GO THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT EVER KNOWING THEIR DADDY. THERE WILL BE A DAY, WHEN WE ARE ALL THERE WITH HIM AND SPENDING ETERNITY TOGETHER.

I MISS YOU JUSTIN QUINN MATTHEW BYRNS (HENSELER). LOL!

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ON A LIGHTER NOTE, WE ARE FINISHED MOVING AND IT ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE HOME. KODY DID SO MUCH THIS WEEK TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING WAS MOVED AND PUT INTO STORAGE. HE'S AN ANGEL. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE. I CAN'T SEE MYSELF WITH ANYONE ELSE, AND I WOULD BE WILLING TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM.. IF THAT DAY COMES.

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY, BUT, WELL, SINCE I AM SUCH A NIGHT OWL, I BETTER TRY TO SLEEP.

I LOVE YOU JUST- REST IN PEACE

I LOVE YOU KODY! THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO AND SHOWING ME A NEW WAY OF LIFE, A BETTER WAY. A WAY OF SIMPLICITY, STRENGTH, TOUGH LOVE AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. THANKS BABE!

Day 2 mmaybe 3 of packing..still have a ways to go

Oh my hell... is this madness EVER going to end? I keep thinking that once the big stuff is gone, it will be easy and all down hill from there. Shit, who am I kidding. We have family in from Cali- Kody's mom wants all of us to go out to dinner tomorrow night...

To be honest, I have not done a damn thing today, but go to work, come home, and well here I am. I will go to sleep early-I will go to sleep early... HA! Like that's ever going to happen.

It's been a really hard day. Tomorrow is the two year anniversary of the passing away of my closest cousin aka Tha God Brotha... it seems like it gets easier, but it really doesn't. I just keep my feelings supressed and go about my happy go lucky life.. or yeah... what it may be. God, I miss him! I miss him soooo much! What I'd give for one more conversation, one more hug, just one more day! Oh... how the tears are streaming like Niagra Falls in spring. Bloodshot eyes, tear stained cheeks, well, it's all worth it! I love you Justin Byrns! Until we meet again! thank you my guardian angel for watching me, guiding me! Keeping your faith in me! Thank you God for all your wonderful blessings! AMEN!

The Packing has begun...

Well, here I am unwinding for the night.. It is always nice to have a day off during the week. It's only nice if you can relax, unwind and do whatever you want. Oh! Who am I kidding? We all know that if your are a parent or work hard during the week, there is no such thing as relaxing on your day off.

If your are lucky, you will get laundry started, house some what cleaned, bills payed and by the time that is taken care of, you are well on your way to start dinner, help with homework, or give your undivided attention to your loved ones.

My day began, MUCH later than I had expected. I woke up feeling as if I had been twisted into a pretzel and could barely move, that didn't stop me. I soon stretch up, out of bed, went into the kitchen and did my daily routine of taking my coctail of vitamins and other meds that are prescribe for my sanity... I personally thank the person who invented Zoloft. You've saved the thousands of people that I may have attacked! Lol! Just kidding.. Although, if I hadn't started taking it, I probably would have had many many problems.. and just be the biggest bitch you've ever met...

So, after my daily routine, I got dressed and headed to Family Dollar, in hopes to find plastic totes to start packing our stuff away. What the heck happened to that place being inexpensive? I could've gone to Wal-mart and saved more money.. there was no time to waste, so I payed what was due and on my way was I!

Awww.. home sweet home. No time better than now to get started, I think I will start in Avery's room, she has the least amount of stuff in her room. Sure enough, twenty minutes later, I was ready to move on to Colin's room. Oh, the dreaded feeling!

I knew it was going to be an ALL day job. That dreaded feeling still had not gone away. Onward I went... dun...dun...dun...

Where do I even begin, but I just chose a spot and started. I cannot believe ALL the crap and toys my child has! Well, here goes... I dove into the unknown, and the unknown it was! He saves every wrapper, paper, pen, pencil, toy, stuffed animal, and even clothes he has grown out of long ago!(and he still wears them).. well, three garbage bags full of toys that haven't been played for quite some time, candy wrappers, clothing and shoes, I was finally making a slight dent in his room. I packed three totes, one box and all that is left is his bed and a few larger items. :::sigh::::: Relieved somewhat, but I knew I was NO where close to being finished!

I headed downstairs, looked around and felt so discouraged... felt so, unacommplished. I began pulling pictures of the wall, clearing out the entertainment center, storing these belongings in bags and boxes. As these things are scattered all over the living room floor, I moved into the kitchen and unbenounced, unmotivated, was I, I kept on keepin' on. Cleared out the China hutch, and started in the small dungon that I call my room.

My hell, when is this madness going to end! I am one person doing a two person job...or at least it feels that way. I gathered what clothing I could and packed it into large garbage sacks.

Now, after all this, I still feel unaccomplished. All this hard work, the sweating, overheating and a spasming lower back... I decided I would call it a day.

Who ever said packing is easy, well they are smoking crack.... I was ready to pull out whatever alcohol we have and kill the bottle...but I didn't, my luck I'd just end up feeling even crappier. I ended up on the bed with the heating pad on my back, awww.. now that was nice. I don't think I have moved much since then.

Just as I was feeling as if I hadn't gotten enough done, My sweet babe came home from work, and said that I had gotten more done than he expected. Awww.... he sure made me feel sooo much better than I was feeling! Thanks babe!

Now what? I suppose bed is the next step. I am exhausted!

How many ways can I think of to get out of packing?

I am siting here playing on my new laptop and all I can think of'

is what a pain it is to move. UGGG! I am only moving a few blocks away...

but it seems like a thousand miles!

Why can't my life be like the movies and have someone do it for me, better yet, let's have a huge party where all the girls drink wine, box everything up and then we are finished in a matter of a few hours, with lots of laughs and reminiscing of the "old times"! Ha, funny how reality kicks in.

My hopes are to have this place packed and cleaned by then end of this week! I am hoping to get many things done tomorrow and have everything ready to just be moved to our new lil' spot we are transferring our belongings too.

I keep telling myself this is going to be easy, no problem! I've barely started unpacking from August. How many cigarrettes must I have or cups of coffee before I am convinced that this is going to be easier than it was the last time.

Let's just face it, moving just SUCKS! I'd much rather listen to music I've heard over and over and spend countless hours surfing the internet looking for anything that catches my eye. Ahhh.. or I could always finish Breaking Dawn, and find out if Bella ends up a vampire with Edward forever, does the vampire baby kill her? What about Jacob? Oh, so many questions! So many better things to do with my time other than packing!

I tried snapping my fingers, wiggling my nose and searching for that magic lamp with the Genie, that I've been saving for certain instances such as now. Such is my luck, I must have sold the lamp, and my magical powers just are not in use! Dang it!

It just seems as if I am going have to "man up" and get 'er done! If I get my way, I will be alone for at least three or four hours and I will be able to accomplish something. As I look around, I tell myself, "oh, there's not that much! This should be fairly easy!" We will soon see. I just have to keep telling myself that if I didn't use it before, I won't use it now! Same goes for the kids' rooms, if they don't play with it now, they won't know that it's gone..... Well, except my son, MR. OCD! He's such a crack up. He is sooo meticulous about his belongings. He has everything set just so. He knows if a sock under a pile of laundry has been moved or if a diecast car is out of place.

I have given up on cleaning his room. He comes behind me and "ranges" everything to his liking. All pictures or anything that can be hanged on the wall is at his eye level. He is just so silly. Avery on the other hand, it stays where it lands. She doesn't care.

It is so funny to watch their differences... it cracks me up. I love both of them so very much! They each brighten up my life in their own ways. I love being able to have a little girl around, but Colin, will ALWAYS be mama's baby!

I really don't think either knows that when we get them next, we will be in our new place. It will be much smaller, but it's cozy and not so big. We don't need big! Especially when Kody goes from the kitchen to the bathroom to the bedroom or whatever order he may have that day. :::giggle:::: He has cleared the garage out!

Oh hell... here I am rambling on and on and on.. I may as well start a book. Ha Ha ha!! It would definitely be an interesting one... "My life, where did I go wrong?: an autobiography" By Stephanie Iverson.

It could be be a hit! All my anonymous stories of the pharmacy, my marriage, my relationships, my childhood, my everything... Wow.. that could be interesting... Here I go rambling, when I could have had both of the kids' rooms finished by now. I guess I better rest up! Big day tomorrow! Oh can you tell how excited I am??!!

April 5, 2008

ON APRIL 5TH, 2008, I MET THE MAN I AM WITH TO THIS DAY. I WAS A BRIDESMAID AT HIS BROTHER'S WEDDING, AND HE WAS A GROOMSMAN. LUCK SO HAPPENED THAT WE WALKED DOWN THE AISLE TOGETHER. AT THIS TIME, I HAD NO INTENTIONS, WHAT SO EVER, TO EVEN TALK, LET ALONE THINK ABOUT A RELATIONSHIP.

KODY ENGAGED IN ALL CONVERSATION THAT HAD TAKEN PLACE AND I BEGAN TO OPEN UP. I SOON HAD TO LEAVE THE RECEPTION AND HE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER, IN A ROUND ABOUT WAY. I REALLY DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD CALL. TWO DAYS LATER, I RECEIVED A PHONE CALL AND HE ASKED ME OUT.

FROM THAT POINT ON, HE HAD ASKED OUT BEING IN A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP. I TOLD HIM THAT I CANNOT LIMIT MYSELF TO SAY YES OR NO, IF IT WORKS OUT, GREAT, IF NOT, WE HAD FUN ALONG THE WAY.

HERE WE ARE ALMOST A YEAR INTO THE RELATIONSHIP, WE MOVED IN WITH EACH OTHER AFTER FOUR MONTHS OF DATING AND HAVE ONLY BEEN AWAY FROM EACH OTHER FOR A MATTER OF 2 OR 3 DAYS AT A TIME.

I FEEL AS IF I HAVE FOUND MY OTHER HALF THAT BALANCES ME OUT COMPLETELY. HE'S SHOWN ME A WORLD OF SIMPLICITY AND LOVE. AN EXPERIENCE LIKE NO OTHER. WE ARE OPPOSITES, BUT IT IS LIKE AND OLD SHOE, IT FITS JUST RIGHT.

BOTH OF OUR CHILDREN GET ALONG GREAT AND AS ALWAYS, EVERY WEEKEND IS AN ADVENTURE. I HAVE SPENT MORE TIME OUTDOORS, THAN I EVER HAVE. I FEEL SO ALIVE WHEN I AM WITH HIM. FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, EVERYTHING SEEMS RIGHT.

I FEEL YOUNGER, HAPPIER AND SO COMPLETE.

I ADORE HIS FAMILY AS DOES MY FAMILY TO HIM.

LIFE IS TO SHORT TO SET LIMITATIONS ON WHAT CAN OR CAN'T HAPPEN. TOO SHORT TO FEAR THE UNKNOWN AND TOO SHORT TO NOT TAKE THAT JUMP.

I THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR BRINGING THIS MAN INTO MY LIFE!

2008? WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?

WHERE DO I BEGIN? COLIN IS NOW 6 YEARS OLD, HAS LOST 2 BABY TEETH AND HAS HIS ADULT ONES COMING IN. I DECIDED IT WOULD BE A GREAT YEAR TO GET PNEUMONIA (OH GOSH THAT WAS MISERABLE), SHORT AFTER THAT I DECIDED IT WOULD BE FUN TO HAVE THE 4-WHEELER TIP OVER ON ME AND FRACTURE MY SPINE AND BRUISE A FEW RIBS.. DAMN, I AM SO MUCH LIKE MY MOTHER, IT'S SCARY! I CANNOT DO ANYTHING WITHOUT BAD LUCK.LOL!!!

2008! IT DEFINITELY WAS A TIME TO FIND ME.(I AM STILL SEARCHING, SO BE ON THE LOOKOUT!) IN ALL HONESTY, IT HAS BEEN ONE OF THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE!!

I FINALLY GOT TO ENJOY THE OUTDOORS OF SOUTHERN UTAH, MORE IN10 MONTHS THAN THE WHOLE SIX YEARS I HAVE LIVED HERE! AMAZING, I MUST SAY!

MY LITTLE MAN ACTUALLY GOT TO ENJOY THE OUTDOORS AS ANY 6 YEAR OLD SHOULD. RIDIN', HIKIN',CAMPIN'...IT HAS BEEN SUCH A JOY.

SEEING LIFE THROUGH ANOTHER'S EYES CAN MAKE YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU CAN ACTUALLY LEARN ABOUT YOURSELF.

MY 2008 WAS DEFINITELY GREAT!!